Worst day ever!!!!
I hate my life, and I hate HIllsboro. I want to leave soo bad. The only people I have here is Mahlia, Carl, and Matt. I do have select other people, but I rarely see them outside of school. Why is it that everyone I am closest to lives outside of hillsboro, and my family is all fucking gay. They never take me anywhere, and refuse to take me to my friends houses. Karen and Quinn live up on Bald Peek, Mike lives in COrnelius, and well, my pen pals and everyone else lives in england. I just want to get away so bad.

So you all want to laugh at Heather? I just fucking cried for twenty minutes, arguing with my mom, over the stupidest crap I might add. The car thing again. SHe wants me to get my liscense so she doesn't have to drive me around, but she won't get me a car so I can take the stupid test until I get a job. So I started to get frustereated, and when I get frusterated bad enough, I start to cry, and all this crap started to flood back to me on what always made me cry when my dad was around. For all of you who don't know, I hate my dad.

I miss Karen so much, and Quinn is like one of my best friends. Matt and Mike can make me laugh, and Mahlia is the best person I have to go for comfort. The only thing is, Mike lives in COrnelius, I don't want to bother Matt on Sundays because he spends those days with his family, and I am going to go over to Mahlia's in a little bit. I mean, sure, I have Kristine and Niko, but I never see them. Josh is pissed off at me for having a life, and I can't go to Carl's, no offense, because I am always afraid that his girlfriend will be over and she will think it weird. I love Liz and Richard, but I go over there all the time when I am having family problems, and I don't want them to think that there house is my escape. I want Quinn, Karen, and my friend SPaz to move back to HIllsboro. I want them here so bad... I hate HIllsboro. Or at least to have someone live close enough to me, that I don't have to deal with my mom when she gets into one of her moods.

My brothers are no help either. One is always trying to please me, and not be himself, because he thinks I am the coolest thing ever... and he's thirty! I don't understand him. My other brother hates me, or he's always with his girlfriend... he just threw me into the couch when I was trying to talk calmly to my mom before this whole thing hit. I don't get why I was cursed with my family, I hate it! I HATE IT!!! I WANT OUT!!! I just feel so trapped, and I don't have anything I can do about it.

I am totally having the worst day of my life. My bowling tournament sucked, my mom and I have gotten into like three arguments over me getting my liscense, and my brothers and pulling there shit again. The only thing that has gone right this whole time is that this hott guy from Century is going to be my partner for a bowling tournament next month, and that might not even be a done deal. I hope it is, I wait for a call from him within the next month to know what is the deal with that. And, oh yeah, I might be able to see him on wednesday, while he's practicing at Four Seasons. If anyone wants to come bowling with me on Wednesday, just hollar at school.

Ok, I think I am done, and I have calmed down, a lot. I love LIvejournal, it gives me a place to vent off frusteration, THANK GOD!!! Lord knows I needed this... thanks everyone!