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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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Health- A
Tech- A
Creative Writing- A
Humanities- C
Band- A (Go figure)
Government- C
Web Design- A (It's a Murdock class that I use for Photoshoppin Yearbook Stuff)
Yearbook- A (It's a Muedock class that I use for doing my homework in.)
3.25 or something like that. It makes me happy.
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
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I have really gotten into my drawings again, I don't know why, I just felt like it.
Anywho...
My b/f is a jackass, and I have been told by six different people I should break up with him and go out with my best friend. Here's why people say I should:
1. My b/f ditched me on our one month anniversery, and my best friend said he would take the place of him.
2. My best friend cares more when I cry... I don't think my b/f has seen me cry, or that he would care too much. My best friend gave me a rose a day for three days swearing one time it was his fault I was crying for the sheer fact he's a guy and I was pissed off at guiys in general.
3. I am able, and do, spend more time with my best friend.
4. I feel complete around my best friend, and needed around my b/f.
5. I have fun with my best friend.
What do you guys think?
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puT AN X NEXT 2 EEVRY MOVIE U HAVE SEEN AND RPOST WITH HOW MANY U HAVE SEEN
(X) Pirates of the Caribbean
(X) Boondock Saints
(X) The Mexican
(X) Fight Club
(X) Starsky and Hutch
(X) Neverending Story
(X) Blazing Saddles
( ) Garden State
( ) The Princess Bride
(X) Young Frankenstien
(X) AnchorMan
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(X) Saw
(X) White Noise
(X) White Oleander
(X) Anger Management
Total here: 13
(X) 50 First Dates
(X) Jason X
(X) Scream
(X) Scream 2
(X) Scream 3
(X) Scary Movie
(X) Scary Movie 2
(X) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(X) American Pie 2
(X) American Wedding
(X) Harry Potter
(X) Harry Potter 2
(X) Harry Potter 3
(X) Resident Evil I
(X) Resident Evil 2
( ) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
Total here: 16
(X) The Village
(X) Donnie Darko
(X) Lilo & Stitch
(X) Finding Nemo
(X) Finding Neverland
(X) 13 Ghosts
(X) Signs
(X) The Grinch
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre
( ) White Chicks
(X) Butterfly Effect
(X) Thirteen going on 30
(X)I, Robot
(X) Dodgeball
( ) Universal Soldier
(X) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( ) Along Came A Spider
(X) Deep impact
Total here: 15
(X) KingPin
( ) Never Been Kissed
(X) Meet The Parents
(X) Meet the Fockers
(X) Eight Crazy Nights
(X) A Cinderella Story
(X) The Terminal
(X) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( ) Passport to Paris
(X) Dumb & Dumber
(X) Dumb & Dumberer
( ) Final Destination
( ) Final Destination 2
(X) Halloween
(X) The Ring
(X) The Ring 2
( ) Harold & Kumar Go to White Castle
(X) Practical Magic
(X) Chicago
(X) Ghost Ship
(X) From Hell
(X) Hellboy
(X) Secret Window
( ) I Am Sam
(X) The Whole Nine Yards
( ) The Whole Ten Yards
(X) The Day After Tomorrow
(X) Child's Play
(X) Bride of Chucky
(X) Ten Things I Hate About You
( ) Just Married
(X) Gothika
(X) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(X) Bad Boys
(X) Bad Boys 2
(X) Joy Ride
(X) Seven (SE7EN)
(X) Oceans Eleven
(X) Oceans Twelve
(X) Identity
Total here: 32
(X) Lone Star
(X) Predator I
(X) Predator II
(X) Independence day
(X) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(X) Darkness Falls
(X) Christine
(X) ET
(X) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' Daughter
(X) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty
(X) Best bet
(X) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
( ) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
( ) Sideways
(X) Mars Attacks
Total here: 13
( ) Event Horizon
(X) Ever After
(X) Forrest Gump
( ) Big Trouble in Little China
(X) X-men 1
(X) X-men 2
(X) Catch Me If You Can
(X) The Others
(X) Freaky Friday
(X) Ring of Fire
( ) The Hot Chick
( ) Swimfan
(X) Miracle
( ) Old School
( ) Ray
( ) The Notebook
( ) K-Pax
Total here: 9
(X)Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(X) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(X) A Walk to Remember
(X) Boogeyman
(X) Hitch
( ) Back Door Sluts 9
( ) Anal Acres 1
( ) Anal Acres 2
( ) B-Cup Divas
(X) The Fifth Element
(X) Star Wars episode I The Phantom Menace
(X) Star Wars episode II Attack of The Clones
(X) Star Wars episode III Revenge of The Sith
(X) Star Wars episode IV A New Hope
(X) Star Wars episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(X) Star Wars episode VI Return of The Jedi...
(X) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks
( ) Air Force One
(X) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People under the stairs
( ) Blue Velvet
(X) Sound of music
(X) Parent Trap
( ) The Burbs
(X)The Terminator
( ) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(X) Meet Joe Black
( ) Wild girls
(X) A Clockwork Orange
(X) The Order
(X) Spiderman
(X) Spiderman 2
( ) Amelie
Total here: 23
(X) Mean Girls
(X) Shrek
(X) Shrek 2
(X) The Incredibles
(X) Collateral
(X) The Fast & The Furious
(X) 2 Fast 2 Furious
(X) Sky Captain Of The World Of Tomorrow
(X) Closer
Total here: 9
(X) Titanic
( ) Saved
(X) Bowling For Columbine
(X)Farenheit 9/11
(X)The Sixth Sense
(X) Artificial intelligence (AI)
(X) Love actually
( ) Shutter
(X) Ella Enchanted
(X) Princess diaries 1
(X) Princess diaries 2
(X) Constantine
( ) Million Dollar Baby
( ) Envy
(X) Eurotrip
(X) Malibu's Most wanted
(X) Big Daddy
( ) Black Sheep
(X) The Breakfast Club
(X) West side story
Total here:15
(X) A Christmas Story
( ) Spanglish
(X) Pulp Fiction
( ) Sleepover
(X) The Evil Dead
(X) Killer Clowns From Outer Space
(X) The Seed of chucky
( ) Vanilla Sky
(X) Nightmare Before Christmas
( ) Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
(X) Interview With The Vampire
(X) The Crow
( ) Purple Rain
(X) Reservoir Dogs
(X) Wayne's World
Total here: 10
(X) Wayne's World 2
( ) 21 Grams
(X) Blow
(X) Edward Scissorhands
( ) Clerks
(X) Beauty and the Beast
(X) Guess who
(X) Monster In-Law
(X) Elf
(X) Stuart Little
(X) Stuart Little 2
( ) Mall Rats
( ) Chasing Amy
(X) Dogma
(X) Jay and Silent Bob Strike Back
Total here: 11
(X) Beetlejuice
(X) The Last Samurai
(X) The Amityville Horror
(X) The Aviator
(X) Romeo and Juliet
( )Barbershop
( ) Beauty Shop
(X) Legally Blonde
(X) Legally Blonde 2
(X) The Forgotten
(X) Confessions Of A Teenage Drama Queen
(X) Grudge
Total here: 10
Total number of movies seen: 176
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Monday, October 17th, 2005
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I just decided to say Hi. I don't come in here much any more, go figure, well... guess what. I don't know when I will be on again. So, have fuin with life everyone.
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Thursday, September 29th, 2005
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Tuesday, September 20th, 2005
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My life has been crap for the past four days... Woot, and another horrid day coming. Here's a good thing for those of you who don't know.
I got my lisence.
All right, so here's the low down on what's going on.
A. A guy I have known forever showed up at my house after I haven't seen him in four years.
B. I want to go out with this guy, but I haven't been able to tell him in four days because he hasn't shown back up, I know he will though, its just one of those things that is building up you know?
C. I got in an unresolved fight with my mom a while back and her and I are still barely talking.
D. My sister and her boyfriend go into a fight that totally felt like my fault the other day, and now, I don't know what's going on between them.
E. On top of all that my friend died in a car accident the same way another friend of mine did a good three to five years ago. But he died on Saturday morning and I didn't find out about it until Monday.
So yeah, lately, a lot of crap has been going on, and I only know a few people who can cheer me up. So, this is my life at the moment. Loads of fun right, well, I don't really have anything else to say at the moment.
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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
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| Subject: | Ok... |
| Time: | 11:34 pm. |
| Mood: |  I can be flirty, and get a guy. | | Music: | Rob Zombie. |
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I haven't posted all summer, so here I am... updating... why? Well that's a very good question. And here is the answer everyone is wanting to hear, I met a guy. Where, who, and how? Right, I bet those are all of the questions going through your minds right now... well, here is the info all of you are going to want.
His name is Jake. He is 20! All right, everyone cheer, Heather knows the basis of this new guy. Anywho, my friend Rebecca invited me to a church thing... she's a mormon. So yeah, you all can guess what was going through my head... "a bunch of praying weirdo's." (No offense to my mormon friends who read this, but you know what I think about religion.) Well, I have also come to the conclusion that a lot of mormon guys are hot, so, I go.
We went to the beach today.
I spent most of the day hanging out with my friends, Claire and Rebecca. Yeah, go me, right? Where does this cute guy come in, and what does he look like? Well, going on... big sand dune, lunch, Pacific City. Yeah, all the basic stuff right? Well, we go up to the bus that drove us in, to get something to drink, something sugary. Yeah! Well, while up there, Claire's boyfriend see's a guy he knows. We go up, and this guy is with his friend, Jake! Well, we offer Jake something to drink, and we get ready to go back down to the beach. Well, Jake and the other guy, his name was Jeremy, offer to give us a ride in their truck down to the beach, not that it was that far of a walk...
Well, long story short, we get in the truck, and we go for a ride down the beach with these two guys. We are all having a ball, standing up in the back of the truck and all that jazz. They are speeding along and, yeah, the guy things to do. Well anyway, it comes about three, and we get bored of riding in the truck. Jake pulls over, and we start drinking some soda again. And Jake starts talking about these really cool rock formations and stuff, and where the water jumps against them. I was the only one who really wanted to see them.
Anyway, so this guy, Jake, someone I have barely known for an hour, takes me up and out into the water on these rocks. It was so beautiful out there, and we just sat there, for damn near and hour and a half. ALl we do is talk, and goof off, and joke around. Nothing too major. Its about 4:17 and we decide to go back to the actual beach because the bus was leaving at 4:30. I slide, he catches me, and yeah... we talk, and he tells me he would give me a backrub when we got back if the bus wasn't ready to leave. I was all for it, but, alas, I didn't get my backrub.
So, anyway, he drives me back up to the bus when we get back to the beach, realizing my friends had left his truck. I am like, well, ok... if they left without me, I am kinda stuck. He offers to take me home if they did. I was like, "wow, thanks." But again, alas, they didn't leave without me. Right before I get out of his truck to meet up with my friends, he realizes he did not get to give me my backrub, so, h egives me his cell phone number. He tells me to call him and maybe he and I and a couple of his friends, and my friend could hang out some time, and then he could give me the backrub he owes me.
So... there... that's the low down on this guy. Heather is going to call him when she gets more minutes on her phone. Oh, yeah... where does he live? Lafayette, Oregon. Forty minutes away.
So there is the lowdown, and well, not much more. Summer has been pretty weak. And I have band camp next week. Fun fun! Anyway, talk to you later, leave a message.
Heather
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P.S. I just realized I never told anyone what this guy look like. Well, everyone knows I like guys with long hair... go figure. Well, while we were at these rock formations, I take Jake's hat off and was like, "I have to see your hair." He asked me if I had a fettish with hair, and well, as most of you know, I was like, "Yeah, basically."
Anyway, getting to what he looks like, I don't remember what coor of eyes he had... sad... but he had chin length hair, much like that of surfers, and it's blonde. At the time it was wet, so I wasn't sure if it was curly or straight. On my general opinion I think its straight.
Yeah, continuing on, he tall, cute, and pretty average in the weight division. Here is a little ditty for all of you who know Mike... Jake also has an inverted sturnum. And I thought Mike was just weird... but oh well.
All right, now I really have to go. I have a pretty bad sun burn, one that will go away in a day or two, and I have bad heat stroke which is making me feel sick. So I want to go to bed. But I had a really awesome day. By the way, I will have minutes on my phone again tomorrow. Thanks... Ta!
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Saturday, June 11th, 2005
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| Subject: | dun dun dun... |
| Time: | 2:11 pm. |
| Mood: |  I could be better!. | | Music: | Hercuels Sound Track-I won't say Im in Love. |
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so i have been dating this ghuy for a week, and i think he wants to break up with me... oh well... i really couldn't care less, as long as we stay friends. so, i am listening to won't of my favorite songs, "I won't say I'm in love" from the Hercules sound track. yeah, don't ask, i just like disney movies.
What's going on?
Well, most of my friends graduated as of yesterday. :( I still have all my junior friends that will graduate with me next year... i just want to say that i love everyone who graduated and hope you had fun at Kristi's house or the all night gradparty, and for all of my friends who are going camping with us, i don't know if I can do it over the weekend, but as I talked to quinn, and she said we might do it during the week. which would work a lot better for me. if you want to talk about it more, call my house phone, we can talk.
So today I am compltely bored, everyone has something their doing, but me. i can't stand it. tomoroow, though, who knows. I wanted to spend the night at someones house tonight, but it looks like that isn't gonna happen unless I head over to rebecca's, but i wouldn't get over there until like ten thirty, and then her mom would be like, "no, not unless you can come earlier." I'm like, my god, MY HOUSE IS FRICKEN BORING!
I think I am just gonna work on one ofmy book until I have to go babysit. That sounds like a plan.
Anyway, back to my boyfriend:
He sends me a message, either yesterday or today, saying that he wants to talk. His best friend won't tell me what about. And here's the thing, he's gone to idaho for two weeks. so, when do you think the perfect time is for him to break up with me, when i can't kill him. What makes him think that this won't make me want to kill him when he gets back, this ic cowardiss... i should have seen this coming... oh well, here's what i have to say, FUCK DATING!!! I HATE THE WHOLE CONCEPT!!!
SO yeah, my day isn't going that great right now. but, i guess there is something that is going my way, i downloaded a whole bunch of songs i have been wanting for a long time. that makes me happy. and yes, i am screwing grammer and puncutations right now, mainly becuase i think they are lame, and fucking gay when i am pissed off. i just want to go outside and toss my sabre. i think I shall actually.
So, yeah, something else. I hae to thank TYSSA... for something. She taught me how to use charcoal, and now, i can't help but have fun when I turn to my art book. i mean, yeah, I have always thought artr was fun, but when it comes to my charcoal works, i can't help but like getting dirty and watching my hands go from clean, to turning completely black. its so much fun.
If you all want to know what song I am listening to, here's the lyrics... BTW... I feel like meg right now, so yeah, you guys can tell how I feel.
I Won't Say (I'm in Love) Lyrics
[Meg:]
If there's a prize for rotten judgement
I guess I've already won that
No man is worth the aggravation
That's ancient history, been there, done that!
[Muses:] Who'd'ya think you're kiddin'
He's the Earth and heaven to you
Try to keep it hidden
Honey, we can see right through you
Girl, ya can't conceal it
We know how ya feel and
Who you're thinking of
[Meg:]
No chance, no way
I won't say it, no, no
[Muses:]
You swoon, you sigh
why deny it, uh-oh
[Meg:]
It's too cliche
I won't say I'm in love
I thought my heart had learned its lesson
It feels so good when you start out
My head is screaming get a grip, girl
Unless you're dying to cry your heart out
Oh
[Muses:]
You keep on denying
Who you are and how you're feeling
Baby, we're not buying
Hon, we saw ya hit the ceiling
Face it like a grown-up
When ya gonna own up
That ya got, got, got it bad
[Meg:]
No chance, now way
I won't say it, no, no
[Muses:]
Give up, give in
Check the grin you're in love
[Meg:]
This scene won't play,
I won't say I'm in love
[Muses:]
You're doin flips read our lips
You're in love
[Meg:]
You're way off base
I won't say it
Get off my case
I won't say it
[Muses:]
Girl, don't be proud
It's O.K. you're in love
[Meg:]
Oh
At least out loud,
I won't say I'm in love
And yeah, so Im done... if you wanna to talk, you know how to get a hold of me, comment if you'd like, i would like feed back.
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I am sitting with QUinn in a practice room during Tech... YAY!!! Tech!!! ANyway, yeah, I realy have nothing to say except that I should be working on my LA homework, typing a short essay... how can I type a short essay... with my luck it is gonna be around seven pages. Yay!!! Oh well, that's about it, so yeah!!! Have fun...
PS EVeryone say HI to Quinn!!!
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I am here, at school, for another week. Yeah! Go me! And I can't log onto gmail at the moment to check my account... it pisses me off... That's about all there is to that! Slol! G-bye!
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Ok, normally, I would be totally against complaining, because I know I have it a lot better off then some people, but I feel I have the right, just because I feel like my brothers are picking on me more then normal. Anyway...
So, reasons why I shouldn't complain...
1. My mom bought me...
My Laptop
My Letterman's Jacket
My New Bed... (It's a Hammock)
This twenty dollar book that I will never use in school.
2. My brothers
Take me almost anywhere I wanna go.
Get me into rated R movies
Buy the collest toys... *glances at Nightcrawler sitting a few inches from my bed*
Buy me comic books
Put up withme during bowling
Support the idea of me becoming a writer
3. I have...
A house
A loving family
Almost anything I want
So why do I want to complain....
1. I really don't know
2. I am really annoyed with my sister
3. My dad is stocking my family
4. Half the time my brothers aren't paying attention to me.
5. My mom and I have more then our fair share of fights
6. I don't have a boyfriend, and most of the guys I want to go out with are either a) with someone, or b) too damn old for me to date!
So this post is actually gonna be a little bit of a rant with mention of what I have been doing for the past week. :)
I want to Trickle Creek ODS camp again, and will probably be going back next week, I hope you all don't miss me that much. Sorry Quinn, I really do love you, but I love it out there so much. Ok... one of the reasons why I love it out there, it is so beautiful.
Most of you know the other reason, it may be the last time I get to see this hot 24 year old before he goes to North Carolina, and I don't want him to go. It makes me really sad to think about it.
So during the week, I was with Mike and Randal. Mike and I were cabin partners, that was really cool, and I got to work on the feild study with rock again... :) That made me more then happy, as you may have guessed. There was only one problem, the kids during the week weren't kids at all, THEY WERE DEMONS! I swear the were the spawn of the devil, in a bad way, fo all of you who know me... :) SLol!
THe girls in the cabin I slept with were so nice, Lindsay, she's thebest, al ittle cookie, but still really REALLY awesome, and she could totally see how much I wanted to get Rock's e-mail address (which I didn't by the way, but I know how I can...)
The worst part about the whole week was knowing I had to go home, I didn't want to leave... it pisses me off so bad. Oh well...
After about the first two days, Mike and I got bored and started to find out who could keep his hat the longest, and sorry, Karen dear, but the kids actualy started to think we were dating, it was kinda funny, but we told them we weren't.
Come eval's, Rock looks at me and just hands me the peice of paper and a pen to sign. His exact words were, "You know what to do. I want to go to bed, but is there anything you want to talk about before you sign it?" I said no, of course. As I looked it over though, as we talked, the last comment said, "I was glad to see her return and will be delighted to see her again." I felt so happy reading that.
Most f the staff want Mike and I to return. Mike had some great ideas... we gave our second group of kids numbers so we didn't have to find out how many we were missing, we just had them line up and count off. It was so great. They started acting like we were in a boot camp and they were the soldiers, they even started to sing the "Left, left, Left right Left," Song... it was sooo halarious. I honestly can say I liked being Mike's cabin partner instead of Cockroaches... Mike was more like me then the other guy, it was lot easier to fo things.
So, might complaint... WHY DOES ROCK HAVE TO GO TO CAROLINA TO GET HIS PH.D??? All right, so, I am not gonna post his name on here, but if anyone wants to ask me, I will be glad to tell them, but here's the thing, he wants me to check out UNC for Collge to double major in LIterature and Geology, which I think would be totally fun. I just got the coolest book on Rock and Minerals of North America, I haven't put it down. Its next to me and I keep glancing over at it... slol! But still, that's still a year to wait before I might get to see him again. It so depresses me. And it depresses me to think that I will be leaving my friends behind to go to college... I really don't want to, but I know if I don't follow what I want to do, I will never get it done... *sigh* what to do?
Continuing on, Quinn, Mahlia, Matt, Josh, Ted, Carl, Thomas, and I went out on Friday after we got back. IT was sooo much fun, except for the last part. We wanted to go see Kingdom of Heaven, and Josh and Tedboth got tickets, but no, when we go up to buy tickets, they CHeck my ID, so I couldn't get my ticket because I don't turn 17 for another few weeks. GO FIGURE!!! So, the rest of us went back to Carl's and watched a movie there. Here's the thing though, yesterday, Quinn and I decided not to go to the cast party, and we go to try and get in the movie again with Matt, and she just asks for two tickets. Normally you are supposed to be twenty one to buy two tickets for a rated r movie, but no, they didn't check her id. It was an ok movie, I don't really like ORlando Bloom, but the King of Jerusalum was totally awesome, although her had leperacy. That's all I am gonna say, just in case some of you haven't seen it.
Now, I am just waiting for Fran, the ODS secretary to call me back and tell me I can go back to Trickle Creek. I wanna go back so bad. But alas... I must wait for her call, I am almost a shoe in to go back though. The staff are asking for me to go back, even the site supervisor. They want both Mike and I to come back in a week for the next split week, so that's what we are waiting for. I really wanna go back. Here's the thing though, I would get back ON my birthday. That's gonna be so weird, I can see it now. All of the staff are gonna pick on me because its my birthday, oh well. I would rather have them pick on me then my brothers. :)
Well, honestly, I think I am gonna log off the net now... TTYL... see everyone at school! :)
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So, I am at Mahlia's house and she's changing out of the pretty black dress I think she should wear for prom.. :) And well, there is some creepy guy in a car just parked outside her house, and we don't want to ask who the hell it is. Normally I would and all, but being at someone elses house and shit, it is just really creepy, I guess it reminds me of all those horror movies I have watched... how gay is that, now they scare me? Actually no, I think we will be fine. Mahlia thinks it could be some of her parents friends but I am not totally sure. I guess, it might, she's calkling her mom... and I guess it is one of her mom's friends... Ok, I feel so much better... slol!
Now that that scare is over, down to business... I can't type everything about my trip right now because I need to call my mom to pick me up... but here was the high point...
Really hot guy, him and I hit on each other most of the time we were there...
Low point...
At the end of the week we learned each other's real name and where we went to school. Me, I am a junior, everyone knows that... Next year, he goes to College in North Carolina to get his PhD in Geology... He's 25.
Another Highg Point though...
He said I should ceck out NCU for college, and maybe we could hook up after high school, I was like, wow! That was totally weird... But yeah... :) It was a good week...
All right, that is all I have time for right now, I wish I could type more, but I really need to go home... slol! I have only been home to sleep since I got back from ODS... it was really fun! I recomend it. I will be going back, so I hope you all didn't miss me too much while I was away...
Loves...
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Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
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I hate my life, and I hate HIllsboro. I want to leave soo bad. The only people I have here is Mahlia, Carl, and Matt. I do have select other people, but I rarely see them outside of school. Why is it that everyone I am closest to lives outside of hillsboro, and my family is all fucking gay. They never take me anywhere, and refuse to take me to my friends houses. Karen and Quinn live up on Bald Peek, Mike lives in COrnelius, and well, my pen pals and everyone else lives in england. I just want to get away so bad.
So you all want to laugh at Heather? I just fucking cried for twenty minutes, arguing with my mom, over the stupidest crap I might add. The car thing again. SHe wants me to get my liscense so she doesn't have to drive me around, but she won't get me a car so I can take the stupid test until I get a job. So I started to get frustereated, and when I get frusterated bad enough, I start to cry, and all this crap started to flood back to me on what always made me cry when my dad was around. For all of you who don't know, I hate my dad.
I miss Karen so much, and Quinn is like one of my best friends. Matt and Mike can make me laugh, and Mahlia is the best person I have to go for comfort. The only thing is, Mike lives in COrnelius, I don't want to bother Matt on Sundays because he spends those days with his family, and I am going to go over to Mahlia's in a little bit. I mean, sure, I have Kristine and Niko, but I never see them. Josh is pissed off at me for having a life, and I can't go to Carl's, no offense, because I am always afraid that his girlfriend will be over and she will think it weird. I love Liz and Richard, but I go over there all the time when I am having family problems, and I don't want them to think that there house is my escape. I want Quinn, Karen, and my friend SPaz to move back to HIllsboro. I want them here so bad... I hate HIllsboro. Or at least to have someone live close enough to me, that I don't have to deal with my mom when she gets into one of her moods.
My brothers are no help either. One is always trying to please me, and not be himself, because he thinks I am the coolest thing ever... and he's thirty! I don't understand him. My other brother hates me, or he's always with his girlfriend... he just threw me into the couch when I was trying to talk calmly to my mom before this whole thing hit. I don't get why I was cursed with my family, I hate it! I HATE IT!!! I WANT OUT!!! I just feel so trapped, and I don't have anything I can do about it.
I am totally having the worst day of my life. My bowling tournament sucked, my mom and I have gotten into like three arguments over me getting my liscense, and my brothers and pulling there shit again. The only thing that has gone right this whole time is that this hott guy from Century is going to be my partner for a bowling tournament next month, and that might not even be a done deal. I hope it is, I wait for a call from him within the next month to know what is the deal with that. And, oh yeah, I might be able to see him on wednesday, while he's practicing at Four Seasons. If anyone wants to come bowling with me on Wednesday, just hollar at school.
Ok, I think I am done, and I have calmed down, a lot. I love LIvejournal, it gives me a place to vent off frusteration, THANK GOD!!! Lord knows I needed this... thanks everyone!
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I get a lettermen's jacket...slol! I am so happy, but my mom and I are gonna check it out now, so I gotta go!
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Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
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I MET HOBBS AND ZIGGS!!!
They are so halarious... omg...
Ziggy ran into a door...
that's about it...
love me... comment!
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Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
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I finally asked someone what the hell and EMO kid was, because I didn't know... Thank you Tearyawna... go figure...
So yeah, that made me feel a little sheepish now... other then that, I don't know, I am sitting in Web Design with nothing to do, Murdock isn't here... so I don't have anything to do, go figure, right? I have learned I can only draw well when I am depressed, because last night I was drawing fricken great, and I was so pissed at my mom, and so depressed on other matters. Now, I can't draw a thing, but its good to be out of depression... slol! Yet again, THanks to Mike!
Ok... yeah...
RANDOM QUIZZ TIME!
I am done for now... love me!!!
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Gettin out of Japanese to randomly do work is great. I am in Photo Design with Smee and Karen and avoiding doing my Japanese work. Yeah, nothin to do nothin to do... yeah, I AM GOING TO PROM!!!! So is smee and moose, this is gonna be fun! I know it... I am Kristine's date, go figure, but yeah. I hope I can talk to Jeff some time today or tomorrow. Slol! Nah, I wanna dance with him at Prom, if he doesn't have a date, I really don't want to intrude, you know? I don't know why, but I like him a lot. Can someone help me?
I don't get it, I mean, why I like him. It's just one of those weird things, you know?
Last night I was talking to Mike till' like twelve thirty or so. It was pretty fun. He cheered me up, my mom and I got into a large fight, and well, I was feeling pretty down about a lot of things. It takes a lot to get me out of that kind of feeling, but he can do it. THANK YOU MIKE! If it wasn't for Karen I wouldn't have Mike as a friend, mainly because I didn't know him that well, so, THANK YOU KAREN!
Anyway, yeah, Prom is gonna be fun, see if I can't dance with Jeff... XD other then that, nothin big is happening. My mom is being an ass, but, I can live with her, I have to, so, yeah, other then that...
Chiao!
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